Resting is my job now

Last week was my first week without a job. Here's a list of my activities:

• Went to the pool with my family (twice)
• Late-night beer with a friend
• Took a nap (twice)
• Helped my three-year-old defeat the final potty training boss
• Took said three-year-old to Scheel's so he could pick out literally any toy he wanted
• Went fishing with my boys before sunrise
• Helped our oldest manage deep disappointment when we didn't catch any fish.
• Reflected on my own disappointment.
• Went to the zoo
• Had brunch with my spouse
• Occasionally felt anxious

There will be plenty of time for work. If I'm lucky, I will work for the rest of my life. Now is not the time for work; it is the time for curiosity and rest. Spending time with kids helps with one of those.

This quote from The Weight of Glory resonated with me:

“To be happy at home, said Johnson, is the end of all human endeavour. As long as we are thinking of natural values, we must say that the sun looks down on nothing half so good as a household laughing together over a meal, or two friends talking over a pint of beer, or a man alone reading a book that interests him; and that all economies, politics, laws, armies, and institutions, save insofar as they prolong and multiply such scenes, are a mere ploughing the sand and sowing the ocean, a meaningless vanity and vexation of the spirit. Collective activities are, of course, necessary, but this is the end to which they are necessary.”

— C.S. Lewis, “Membership” in The Weight of Glory